This has been a rough week, and I had a very rough night. I was consumed with difficult feelings and felt lots of stress. These are dangerous times for my journey to health because I have a really terrible relationship with food.
As long as I can remember I have reached for food to relieve stress, comfort me when I feel discouraged or lift my spirits when I was sad. It is embarrassing to admit that I have this relationship with food, but it is so true and has been a contributing factor to my weight issues throughout my life. It is something that weighs on my mind when I think about celebrating with my kids by going out to dinner or getting ice cream. I worry that I might be teaching them similar habits.
However, in this situation when both stress and sadness hit I turned to friends instead of food. It was
hard at first but a lot of relief was found in telling them the struggle I was facing and getting their support. Even a few laughs were shared, and I felt stronger. I am truly blessed to have people in my life I can turn to when things seem to close in around me. Whether it is to share all the details with the realization that they won't judge me, but that they will love me through it or just to help me feel accountable to myself not to eat my feelings. They all help in such wonderful ways, and I am so very grateful.
So even after a difficult night, I am proud to report that there is Christmas candy in my house and the packages are still sealed.
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